Monday, February 8, 2010 10:46 PM
I don't know
I know no one ever reads my blog anymore,
but whatever.
(Just ignore this stupid long post cos I'm just ranting whatever out.)
And know what.
Typing
like
this
does
annoy
me
sometimes.
Maybe I should just type like this. In proper paragraphs. ... That sounded super Literature-ish :/ Ugh I really don't know what's wrong with me. It's like. I don't know. I just don't seem to care so much anymore. About what, I don't know. SEE! I say that way too much. And I need to stop, cos obviously its not helping me at all. Okay now typing like this is annoying me.
I mean, I feel really driven when it comes to certain things, but. I don't know. I hate that I don't have a sense of urgency like everyone else does, and that sometimes I just contradict myself too much that it becomes a habit and its gets really frustrating sometimes! (Gah why am I still typing like that :/ Whatever.)
And I know I already have my target/goal/whatever shit you call it in my head.
I know,
It's stuck there,
I know.
But why isn't anything happening at all?
... I work really hard only for myself, not for anyone else.
Its just sometimes I feel like I need more encouragement or something.
I KNOW I don't need it, but I just FEEL like I need it, when I really really don't.
So I really have no idea what's wrong with me.
It's either I have too much time right now,
or I'm just really stupid.
Or I'm just weirdly reflective.
Or I'm just very impatient.
I don't know.
(I HATE THAT PHRASE)
Sometimes some things really piss me off (Uh the "I don't know" doesn't count ._.)
And I really hate that.
Why can't I just accept things the way they are and
stop being a "freaking perfectionist" everyone else thinks I am.
I should just stop shouldn't I.
Yeah :/
Oh fabulous.
No smilies in this post.
AT ALL.
That's... weird.
Very weird.
Whatever,
I'm just going to leave it at that and you know.
Let this post die.
In its STUPIDANNOYINGIDIOTICIRRITATING-ness.
Woohoo.
Seeya.
I've been way too reflective haven't I.
I♥AT
